SUARA HATI SEKARANG...

AND NOW...

WHEN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT MARRIAGE...

AKU AGAK MENYAMPAH BILA MEREKA ACAH-ACAH BAHAGIA, MACAM SEMUANYA BAGUS MACAM FAIRY TALES. 

REALITI HIDUP ZAMAN SEKARANG INI, AKU RASA BEBAN PENGURUSAN RUMAH TANGGA TU JATUH SEMUANYA ATAS BAHU ISTERI. MOSTLY ISTERI ZAMAN SEKARANG SEMUANYA BEKERJA, JARANG SANGATLAH TAK KERJA. ISTERI TUKANG BASUH BAJU, TUKANG KEMAS RUMAH, TUKANG MASAK, AMBIK ANAK PERGI BALIK PENGASUH, JAGA ANAK KALAU SAKIT, ISTERI YANG AMBIK CUTI BERIYA. NTAH, AKU RASA LELAKI ZAMAN SEKARANG SEMAKIN SUSAH NAK JUMPA YANG BERTANGGUNGJAWAB. RAMAINYA YANG SUKA AMBIK KESEMPATAN. AKU RASA ISTERI-ISTERI NI SANGAT STRESS SAMPAI TAK TERLUAH STRESSNYA TU. SENTIASA TERSEPIT, NAK MARAH KARANG SUAMI, MARAH JADI DERHAKA. TEGUR SIKIT, BERTEMBUNG DENGAN EGO DIA.  SIAPA-SIAPA YANG ADA HATI NAK NGORAT AKU DAN JADIKAN AKU ISTERI DIA, TRUST ME, I WON'T BE EASY.

WHAT LOVE???

Aku dah break-up since Dec 17 - Jan 18, tak tau actual tarikhnya, because break-up is a process not a moment. and I realise 1 thing, walau kita dah cuba yang terbaik, tapi kalau dah tertulis di Luh Mahfuz, dia bukan jodoh untuk aku dan aku redha. Actually, tak ada apa pun yang patut aku rasa sedih sangat.
He was my second couple just about 7 month.
My first couple long last for appx 7 years.
We fall in love with 3 people in our lifetime. Each one for a specific reason.First love: This love often happens at young age, you eventually grow apart or call it quits or silly things. When you get older, you may look back and think it wasn't love. But the truth is, it was. It was love for what you knew love to be. Remember, There different depths of love.
Second love: The hard one. You get hurts this one. This love teaches us lessons and makes us stronger. this love includes great pain, lies, betrayal, abuse, drama and damage. But thi is the one where we grow. We realise what we love about love and what we don't  love about love. Now we know the difference between good and bad humans. Now we become closed, careful, cautions and considerate. What know exactly what we want and don't want.
Third love: This one comes blindly. No warning. It creeps on you silently. You don't go looking dor this love. It comes to you. You can put any WALL you want, it will be broke down, You'll find yourself caring about that person without trying. They look nothing like your casual crush type, but you get lost in their eyes daily. You see beauty in their imperfections. You hide nothing from them, You want marriage and family with them. You thank Allah for them. You truly love them.
 I'm waiting for my third love...

Aku tak tau macam mana nak handle situasi ni...
Tuhan yang hadirkan rasa ini...
Pada dia.. Pada aku..

I'm sorry I messed up...

Enau dalam belukar

Assalamualaikum wbt...
Apa yang kau rasa, bila kau bersungguh-sungguh buat sesuatu yang kau suka, kemudian kau disuruh buat perkara lain, yang kau tak suka although you are good at it...?

Apa perasaan kau, bila kau rasa semua malapetaka bala alam ni, semuanya orang tala kat kau je...?

Suruh menyanyi...kau
Suruh menari...kau
Suruh berlari...kau
Suruh makan...kau
Suruh berperang...kau
Suruh melawa...kau
Suruh belajar...kau
Suruh...semua...kau

Sebab...
Kreteria dipenuhi...

Ya Allah.. aku bersyukur dengan segala nikmat-Mu ini...

Rindu

Rindu tanpa balasan
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Sakit

KEMAHIRAN

Petang tadi. Jumpa sorang brader.
Dia repair kereta...
Brader tu ada multiple skills...
Repair keta, wiring, baking, menjahit, buat perabot...

Skills are important...
Biar kena campak kat mana pun, boleh hidup..

Rahsia Kekasih

Rindu bila jauh

Seksa merindu kekasih

Mengadu pada dia

Katanya, rindu tu sebahagian dari rasa cinta

Rindu baunya

Rindu alisnya

Rindu kedutan bawah mata tika dia menguntum senyum